You don't want to know what it has cost to put you beside him
It will cost you a piece of yourself
It will cost nothing compared to what you'll save

Ok I'll be gone for the next 5 days and so I'll shall place my last words here for the people that have been to Vietnam or have been away for thier own holiday. Especially Kai and Mal! They are the most frequent visitors of my blog! Hehe and sorry to those that do read but never tag. which reminds me of something. But nvm.

I just hope that when I come back, I can see a better world than it is currently is. But I know my absence will only just make things worse for me. But oh well. You all can sms although I'm in camp, but I'll only respond to it at night. So try to sms me at night. Around 9-11. Btu please do not hesitate to do so because I will be damn bored so I'll sms bac to the best of my ability 8) And please do not spam my blog T.T I now it is very tempting for some people *ahems*coughs*

Yeah thats about it. I just hope that when I came back things will be better.

I can only hope

Your friend and soon to be enemy,
CLIFF/CLYDE

Do you now what they do to liars? Do you honest believe that this is going unseen? Are you sure that this is what you want? Are you ready to face the truth when they come to you fateful day? Does it make a difference? Stop giving fake impressions. I know whats going on. You must be saying to yourself that this guy is full of crap. Well go ahead and live in your stuck-up world, for I know whats going on. Believe me I have a thousand and one ways to find out. But thankfully I don't have to use them because you are doing it right in my face. Are you ready to expire? Because too much help can be sometimes... How would I put it... too much help can sometimes mean that you are become a fucking prick. And oh believe me I can do what I please. Yes, is gona hurt you more than its gonna hurt me. I'm sorry if this has to be done. You forced my hand. Well? No nothing you do now is gonna affect me. Seriously. Try me. If I have done so many terrible things according to you. These would be just another thing.

Ok with that out 8) Haha ok I would like to thank mal for coming here as often as he can and supporting me through this "thing". Anyway I wish all the CO people to have a successful concert on Sunday. I will try my best to go. Because I have a camp on Monday. And its best not to be late for that. 8)

I just hope that things will turn out better that it already is. Once again if you are asking yourself what the hell is going on, don't. Because all you will hear is the the long list of things that will bore that crap out of you. So I won't burden you. And anyway this is not the place. Unless this becomes a private blog 8) which I am soon considering. Because if can't say what I want here then whats the point of typing all this down... I will invite everybody, except a few. I thin you should now why.

I can only hope for a better day tomorrow...

You have to trust someone to be betrayed. I did. And now I regret.

Hello, Kai un kill me please!! 8( I was too tired to post that day... But I know you are cool... I think... I can't stop mentioning kai in my recent posts... XD

Ok this Monday went to send the Vietnam ppl off. It was cool and funny at some points... Ok me novy and MS were suppose to meet at the TM mrt at 7 and then take a train to airport. But when I woke up at 6 I saw my dad also packing. Well sort of packing. I then knew he was going to the airport. Then I asked him, then bah bah bah. Next thing was that I was having a free cab to the airport XD I was there at like 0610. My dad did a check in which was like 2 mins O.O then I sent him off. So I was there alone for like 40 mins, walking around waiting in the hopes that the cab ppl would be there early so i wouldn't freeze to death alone. Eventually, at abt 0710, Novy and MS had made it so I went to see them first. Then we wen to the group. So like you are wondering what happen to the taxi ppl! Well they were late, despite taking a cab.

EPIC... wait for it, wait for it... FAIL!!!! XD

Then the rest of the week was mostly spent at home watching its a bloody nice show... If you want it, you can always ask me to send it to you.. 8)

There are so many things that I want to say but this is not the place and this is not the correct pairs of eyes that are reading this... I just can only hope... For sometimes helping too much can be very bad... Heard of the fisherman story?

Ok I think that its time for me to leave again.... bye peeps...8|

I'm jubilant my former paramour is jubilant...

Ok haha today was like a nice day. Not surprisingly it is a friday! Haha, anyway the past few days have been like ups and downs and ins and outs... like always... ARGHHH I want to scream so many things out but but but but but the full story can only be told when right pairs of ears are beside me... So I have a list of random shout outs but I post it here because I know that noone ever reads this, but if you are reading this now then you are a good friend of mine and you mean a lot of things to me.. XD

Am I useful? Or being used? Am I really that incapable? Is it time for me to go? Am I wasting my time? Must it really be this hard? What have I not that the rest all have? Why does it seem like everybody can get what I want with swipe of their chubby hands? What do you see in me? my wallet? my resources? or simply me? When the time comes can you give me another chance? Can nothing be done?

Ok... I think by now if you have thought of many things... but throw them all away because they don't mean anything if you don't get them from me... XD haha I know Kai will be happy when he reads this beacuse I am specially mentioning him again...XD that is because he frequents my blog the most, I think... XD once again show you how unpopular my blog is...
But haiz anything man, but today was fun for sure! Thanks guys! I don't specially name people like other people do, because to me all of you all are equally important to me! Just that I hang out with some people more... hehe

KK.. i think i very tired liao...its like 0245 already! Haha I think I going off soon... Or maybe not XD what does it matter anyway XD CyA!

Every word you say, just takes me away...

Every word you say, just takes me away...

One word : "LAME!". I guess two people sometimes have too much time. We know who you are. Admit now OR we come find you! XD... I know sometimes people play a fool but I'll still be waiting, to hear that apology to me or clarice...

And want to copy me also copy until like that. My smiley face is " 8)" NOT " B) " XD then also nver use " XD " enough, and then I never use <3 before... and also too little "..." Haiz why nver ask me this kinda important thing... Then why would I spam about this kinda thing on other ppl blog! and then say keep it a secret, then spam 3 blogs! N1 XD

Haha ok that aside XD Today was great! Haha "back away" came last night and we were playing army of 2 and Call of Duty: MW2. Then we watch many episodes of top gear lah! SUPER FUNNY MAN, all the 3 host were like in constantly arguing with each other... Then they do alot of stupid stuff and they also invite a lot of celebrities to go and do a timed lap... XD It is a MUST watch! Then in the afternoon then we go and look at all the game prices and comment on all the shit games in front of people that just bought them XD. Their face is priceless man! XD

Then in the evening I went out with jun hao to go and buy the stupid earplugs that is like fing doesnt work lah seriously my own earpiece workes better lor! ZZZ then walk all the way from bedok mrt to the army shop! HAHA jun hao also got the 2e5 dog tag now! yeah! Woo! then we go eat prata at 201 there cause Junhao need to go Zhi liang hse take Ncc shirt cause we tomorrow need to go Live shooting. But i only reserve LAH!! -.- stupid lah! If they follow score then I would confirm be in the team one leh ZZZ. STUPID LARHH.

Haha finally got that outta my head! YEAH! Ok this seems like a good enough update for Kai 8) Hope you enjoyed reading!

I'll not misplace your trust like I once did, just trust me once more...

The next time you look back, I think you should look again...

Ok this is my new blog skin guys. I know the font is abit small but I am working on it. It was like from blogskin.com but then I wrote most of the other codes myself 8) hehe.

Anyway these last 2 days have been so "WAH" seriously no English word can describe it,only SINGRISH CAN! XD LOL. Then today is NOVY'S BIRTHDAY! ALOT of things went into preparing this, there was only 1 failure. The swimming T.T stupid guard can go to hell lah, my parents like been paying like monthly maintenance fees then like can not give in abit. But ok lah, not their fault.

Almost everybody made it except for Kai and Nel I think, I am saying this not because i want to blame them, I just want to say those that din't come cause alot came I lazy XD. Clarice had to go off early for CO, I think Mal is trying to find them as I am typing this.

I want to thank Larry for sponsoring for the food and the water gun/artillery thing, also Mr leong if he ever reads this, cause he fetched me, Clarice, Vivien and Larry form school to 201 to buy the cake even though he was already late for "something" XD. And last but not least Clarice for following us around to go and chose the cake for us (novy is clarice chose 1 so can thanks her) although she had to go off early for CO on a SATURDAY!(which is so lame btw)

I will post all the photos on facebook later if I have the time.

Ok so I need to go for my Great Grandmother birthday also... Haha she has the same Bday as novy!

You are the one that puts the smile on my face everyday...

Sometimes i cannot tell the difference between what I want to see and what I am really seeing. Its kinda a funny thing, it might sound stupid to you, but one day when you experience it then you will find out at the end its not so funny after all.

I really cannot tell between its disintegrating thoughts and mine, that I live through the pain of it unraveling itself in my mind. All for what? I do ask myself that question from time to time.

Haha, now to my fellow readers XD I know that I don't update it daily, so I try to compile every thing into 1 post. Sorry if its too long. :x

Ok lah these few days are not the best but neither the worst, although i can tell you that really if yo really piss me off within these few days you wont see the nice side of me. Have you ever really seen the angry side of me? Highy doubt it. Give you bucs if you did. But only 3 ppl can claim the prize money i wont say who. But if you think you are 1 of them come and find me 8).

Anyway to all the 2e5 ppl I have a warning for you. I thin I might not be able to make it for the BBQ because of NCC. But if I can't make it then i think you all just pretend that I am sitting there in the corner watching. Because I will miss you guys like crap. Just have fun, me and ken already made alot of prep for the BBQ already hope you guys can turn up 8).

Ok to all the ppl whose day was turned bad because of me, I'm really sorry, I don't know what to say anymore 8( I just hope that you guys can continue.


OK LAST PART OF ENTRY!!! I WILL PAY 15 BUCS TO THE PERSON WHO CAN TELL ME THE 3 HIDDEN MESSAGES INSIDE THIS ( IGNORE ALL THE CRAP )


Clearly, the feeling of dread, the feeling of envy the feeling of losing something you once held so dearly to yourself, and then lose it all within the twinkling of the eye.the feeling that there is nothing left in life but to live it.

lots of people might tell you it is best that you move on. That life is not how you stumble, but how you pick yourself and subject yourself to the fact the you may fall again.

Are you asking yourself the question,"So what?" so what you do and feel in life is what you make of it. Life isn't short,you can only compare yourself relative to the amount of time that you have left. You can choose, to remain fallen, or you can get on your feet and stand the chance to fall and go through the painful process all over again.

"Receiving to give" ever heard of it?

I know that both resolutions are not nice, but what is to be done with what littletime or resource that you have left, must be. But I must remind you that it is an undeniable and may i say fundimental fact of life that when faced with that decision evey alternative is preferable.

Catch, THERE IS NO ALTERNATIVE.

Especially while the law has many penalties for the atrcities that we inflict on others, but there are no punishments for the terrors that we inflict on ourselves in return. Is it fair or is it a product of man's natural and irresistible sense of pride. That he is always doing the 'right thing". i know that some of you might feel that this is a complete waste of time, but the fact is that yor are still reading this sentence already says something. I will leave when my time is up, but before that i will leave you with two words. Good Luck.

Haha, I ppl who still reads my blog which are still still a hand full. LOL I can't thank you guys enough man.

Anyway these few weeks like okok only lei. There has been ups and downs and plains and slopes and valleys and inclines and declines, I know the geog ppl are laughing at me now cause some of them are the same thing I think. Happy face*

Yeah I know some of you know I'm sick, and to those who don't know, its nothing much. But to allt he ppl who do know, Im getting better, on Saturday it didn't happen once, except the 1 that happened in the morning. And so far today it has not happen once yet. So I also want to thanks all the people that were concerned over it. i will be playing badminton with you guys again if it doesn't happen again in like 4 days. Happier face*

And ok to gaming, I am so happy that I got ODST liao, and for so cheap, I know to some its not BIG news but then to me and to all the halo fans out there we have been waiting for a almost 3 years for it. Haha so sad i don't think i will be going for this years's EOY torns 8( But i wish for there to be sportsman ship unlike last year ZZZ. Hehe i think i am growing old liao time for the new generation to come and take your place. So much for us to nbe the "x" generation huh. *(

I also want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOVY !!!! This whole paragraph is for you... HAHA I know it might not be alot but itz the thought that counts... I think 8)

Ah anyway i think I going black shot liao.. haha and sry to those who think that my blog is dizzlying you (kai) i try and change it.. and Kai cheer up ok, it hurts us to see you like that also... smile 5 mins a day and it will come naturally... :x woops copyright laws :x kk so bb ppl I will try and blog more often if I can 8)