YAY! there are still people reading my blog! XD haha.. okay.. there's goodnews.. 8) i relearning html so i can make a better blog.. 8)

i really wanted to cycling today but then my parents anniversary.. SO cannot go out... -.- what to do? Recently got thsi feeling of helplessness.. I dont know why lurhs.. But not to many things turning out well for me lurh.. >.< haha.. wanna become a pacifist again.. 8) but then every time go out.. i always see them.. and wonder what the hell am i doing.. -.- Oh well..

And a tip to MOST of my guy friends.. I say most cause some of them "lucky" 8) I wish do wish them the best of what they have lahs.. 8) but for those who are not as lucky...

Any girl that is decent looking.. and not crazy.. and not psychotic.. and is reasonably smart.. and comes from a family of reasonable income... ALREADY likes another guy OR is attached liaos... I'm not saying its 100% lahs.. But your chance is about... 0.0000000008958% YES! i've done the probability math.. this sample is taken from our school.. 8) so that leaves you with 5.97 women in the WORLD that is decent looking, sane, reasonably smart, and has a fmily of reasonable income.. and doesnt already like somebody else or attached.. 8) GOOD LUCK BAHS! 8)

waste my time.. stupid idea.. -.-

Went out with my parts bs today! FUN! haha.. Well.. I know someof them cannot make it for good reasons.. so I dont blame them.. 8) afterall.. who am I to stop them right? 8)

When ever I go out.. I regret.. Because somehow I'm not really looking forward to it.. And when its time to go home.. I also feel kinda bad.. >< I don't know lahs.. 8/ Isn;t it easy to say? I really wonder when somebody would discover that I'm posting again. 8) Ironic no?

Hmm.. I find it a nice habit to go gym at night now. 8) quiet.. relaxing.. no stress.. literallly everything goes on hold.. 8D Well, at least until the adrenaline stop pumping lahs.. 8) But somehow.. I want somebody there you know.. As in be there.. ><
I find it kinda funny. I find it kinda sad. That the loneliness I felt at that moment was the best in a long long time. I find it hard to tell you cause I know its hard to believe. But yeah. 8)

I really cant wait to go back to gaming you know.. Like 6 guys cramped in a small room.. gasping for air and like having not a care in the world.. screaming till dawn... then drink abit.. potato chip breaks.. XD haha.. Those were really good times man.. before this shitstorm... ~.~ And espcially the alliances we made with one another.. the feeling of a well oiled killing machine.. 8) and it develops a kind of trust between people... 8) I remember I would sometimes get shot on purpose knowing that my friend would clean up the guy befoe I would die.. 8) it's dint really work ALL the time.. but it wored well enough.. 8)

Talking about trust.. I find it hard to believe that you have a problem trusting.. But then who am I to stop you right? 8) Just remember the sweetest milk will one day turn sour.. And the warmest hugs will turn cold just like a cup of milk left alone.. So the only faith that I've learn to hold on to is your own.. However.. Only from the sour milk can you get the healthiest yogurt.. And the cold glass of milk to cool you down on the hostest day.. 8) So.. What to do?

I know I damn draggy on this post but then again nobody's gonna read it.. XD Haha.. Oh well.. I'm just killing time.. waiting for video to download.. 8) Cya next time..

Well I felt like coming back here today for some reason.. You know.. Just now sent some time at the playground.. On top of the monkey bar.. And just staring at the sky.. Waiting for something.. Somehow staring at nothing really lets you zone out and realise you are very small.. and there is nothing you can do in the world to change that. However instead of panicking.. You relax..

I dont know lurh.. i somehow feel the freedom to type whatever I want.. Since nobody comese here anyway.. Its a good thing lah I guess. 8) Highly doubt even isabelle comes here anymore.. >< not that I blame her lahs.. 8) I wish for her to be working hard.. 8)

Wanted to vlog.. but then blogger wont let me do it.. T.T But I see if I can lurh.. 8)

Thanks to all my brothers who have let me relax and the friends in concern.. 8) what will I do without you guys.. After all.. I see no purpose.. 8)