Went out with my parts bs today! FUN! haha.. Well.. I know someof them cannot make it for good reasons.. so I dont blame them.. 8) afterall.. who am I to stop them right? 8)

When ever I go out.. I regret.. Because somehow I'm not really looking forward to it.. And when its time to go home.. I also feel kinda bad.. >< I don't know lahs.. 8/ Isn;t it easy to say? I really wonder when somebody would discover that I'm posting again. 8) Ironic no?

Hmm.. I find it a nice habit to go gym at night now. 8) quiet.. relaxing.. no stress.. literallly everything goes on hold.. 8D Well, at least until the adrenaline stop pumping lahs.. 8) But somehow.. I want somebody there you know.. As in be there.. ><
I find it kinda funny. I find it kinda sad. That the loneliness I felt at that moment was the best in a long long time. I find it hard to tell you cause I know its hard to believe. But yeah. 8)

I really cant wait to go back to gaming you know.. Like 6 guys cramped in a small room.. gasping for air and like having not a care in the world.. screaming till dawn... then drink abit.. potato chip breaks.. XD haha.. Those were really good times man.. before this shitstorm... ~.~ And espcially the alliances we made with one another.. the feeling of a well oiled killing machine.. 8) and it develops a kind of trust between people... 8) I remember I would sometimes get shot on purpose knowing that my friend would clean up the guy befoe I would die.. 8) it's dint really work ALL the time.. but it wored well enough.. 8)

Talking about trust.. I find it hard to believe that you have a problem trusting.. But then who am I to stop you right? 8) Just remember the sweetest milk will one day turn sour.. And the warmest hugs will turn cold just like a cup of milk left alone.. So the only faith that I've learn to hold on to is your own.. However.. Only from the sour milk can you get the healthiest yogurt.. And the cold glass of milk to cool you down on the hostest day.. 8) So.. What to do?

I know I damn draggy on this post but then again nobody's gonna read it.. XD Haha.. Oh well.. I'm just killing time.. waiting for video to download.. 8) Cya next time..